Friday, October 21, 2005

Help

Well I am going to see what good can from this thing we call blogging. I am not a big fan of doing things where I can't see peoples eyes but I think that this might have some merit. Sooo here is goes


My first real blog and it is a downer. Have you ever felt like the clouds are heavy and you just can't seem to escape the heaviness of the clouds. That is a feeling that has been following me for a few weeks now and I can't figure out what is going on. I feel like I am simply going through the motions and not really accomplishing anything. The sad part is that other than my beautiful, sensitve wife I don't know where to turn or don't feel that I can turn anywhere. Is that my fault? Am I being blind to the people that care a lot about me. I do not like that place that I am in. I want to be excited about what I am doing everyday and not dread it. I love God. I love Hayley. I love my family. I think I can even say that I love the church but my passion is waning. I desperatly crave community to share, with to cry with, to laugh with and to expereince life with. Why don't other people want that to. I would be interested in anyones thoughts.

Doug